Someone once told me (last night), that setting goals for yourself is one of they key elements in the pursuit of happiness. Achieving these goals, whether big or small, will give you a sense of worth.
My response was "well my problem is I can never finish anything."
His: "well you have to change that."
Me: "but why?" (i'm stubborn to a fault)
He: "Because I want you to finish the painting you started for my birthday!!" (which was 5 months ago)
Me: "grumble, grumble"
I had to ask myself, is this really what I think or is this a defense mechanism? - this is something I wonder often. Perhaps if you're wondering whether it's a defense mechanism, then it most likely is. But really, what behavior isn't some sort of defense mechanism? I guess lately (always) I haven't started things because I have this voice in my head that tells me I never finish anything, so what's the point. Is it the winning or the taking part? Am I just incredibly lazy or am I afraid of failure to the point of inaction? All are questions worth pondering...
Anyway, I decided that I would start to make myself little tiny (achievable) goals. Or at the very least, plant the seeds of goals.. and publish them on a blog so in some way I feel accountable (that is to say, if anyone out thereis actually reading this).
you know what I love about the internet? well..I love that there seems to be an endless supply of good stuff. stuff to inspire you, and make you laugh.. or just make you feel connected to other people because maybe you realized that other people are just as weird as you are. It's funny, you hear people say things about how we connect less on a more "real" level with other people now, thanks to Facebook and the like... and I would have to agree with that, to an extent - but it's also opened up all these opportunities to connect in some small way with millions of people you'll never know on a personal level.. In some strange way it helps make the world seem a little less vast and human kind a little bit more likable... I'm inspired and comforted in the knowledge that we can all experience a little bit of joy from watching a squishy faced cat eating a watermelon. so thank you, internet for bringing things like this into my life.
ridiculously great things:
oddly heartwarming things:
breeds of chicken I didn't know existed but now love:
Some of you out there.. (Henry) may have noticed that I haven't blogged in a very long time. I guess it started to feel strange because for a little while I felt like I was living in limbo, and found even thinking about it overwhelming.. so the thought of writing on here was even more so. But life is less limbo-y now and I've been missing the old blogging thing so I guess I'm back.. at least for today!
I like to think that this seagull was having very profound thoughts whilst gazing out at sea.
So.. I've been really absent on my blog lately and this is mainly because the past few months have been hectic and transitional. I had been thinking about making a change for awhile, and finally went for it...
I've moved to California!
I've spent the last 15 years living in England, so it's a big move but definitely a necessary one.
